11 weeks and whoa!

On Thursday we entered week 11 of the pregnancy. It's hard to believe in just 2 weeks we'll be out of the first trimester! This week the baby is the size of a lime. The head is starting to tilt back and the finger nails are growing.

On Thursday I also received a call I never thought I would receive. To fully explain we need to back up a little. Earlier in the week I was told that I was considered a "high risk" pregnancy. This label didn't overly concern me. I was diagnosed as insulin resistant last year so I knew that I may get labeled high risk. I've been fighting off diabetes for probably the last 4 years. Up to this point I've been doing pretty darn good. Even though I've struggled here and there I've kept my sugar under control with diet and exercise. I knew that getting pregnant would pose some challenges for me but it was nothing that I didn't think I couldn't handle.

I was referred by my doctor to a high risk doctor. They called, asked me some questions and upped my glucose testing from a few times a day to 7 to 8. I started to feel like a pin cushion! On Thursday the high risk office gave me a call back with more information. They fully expect me to end up on insulin at some point during this pregnancy. As a person who has been working so hard to stay off of pills, insulin is a possibility that never entered my mind. I immediately felt like the biggest failure as not only a person trying to stay healthy but also as a mom. It's a feeling I've been struggling with ever since.

I know I'm not a failure but I feel like all of the work I've done is for nothing. Thank goodness I have the most amazing support system of family and friends. My personal trainer Erin has vowed to help keep me in shape. She also was a great voice of reason to talk to the day I received the news. Just an ear to listen and a great workout can do the mind more good then you can ever imagine. My mom and Ben (yeah, that's DTB's name) have been beyond great. They've allowed me to be the overly emotional pregnant woman that I am. I've cried probably more times then what is really necessary but never once did they tell me my feelings weren't rational. They've been understanding and there. My two best friends who have themselves have been getting healthy were quick to offer me reassurance and to be there for me no matter what. Even an acquaintance offered words of encouragement that touched me very much. So as I start this new challenge, I thank everyone who has been so great. I probably don't tell them enough but I love them all more then they know and I never for a moment take them for granted.

The good news is that I don't have to start insulin right away. For now I'm going to diabetes education classes and keeping in very close touch with my high risk doctor's office. We'll know more information as time goes on. I honestly don't know if I'll end up on some kind of medication or insulin for life. It is a possibility but if I keep healthy it may just be for the pregnancy. At this point we don't even know at what point I'll need to start taking the insulin.

So I'm going to keep working hard. I still see Erin once a week. I'm also joining a couple of exercise classes. Thank goodness I'm starting to get some energy back! I'm going to need it!

Jinxed Myself

The first question everyone asks you when you announce a pregnancy is "how are you feeling". I've been very luck to be able to reply with "great!" Which has all been true....up until last night.

I woke up last night with the most horrible pain on the right side of my face. It feels just like a sinus infection. The only problem is I don't have enough symptoms to go to the doctors. They advised me to take the "wait and see" approach. So I headed home from work early today. I ended up taking a nice long nap and steaming my face a bunch of times. Unfortunately it's not helping. It actually feels like whatever I have is moving down into my neck and ears. So I guess that explains why I've had headaches for the past week or so. I'm probably been fighting this off for a while. I won't let myself suffer too long. It's no fun feeling like this.

In other news - the word is officially out. Family members are all informed and spreading the word. Some are still in shock, some are giddy and some are having a good ol' laugh. Thanks for all the well wishes from everyone. We really appreciate them all!

Ultrasound pictures are up!

Thanks to my oldest brother I can share our ultrasound pictures. Feel free to check them out!

One less thing to worry about

Today I received a phone call from the company I interviewed with before heading out on vacation. They ended up hiring someone else. That's o.k. I don't have to worry about how to handle the whole pregnancy/new job thing. Plus like I said before I love where I'm at so it all really works out for the best.

The nice thing about the phone call I receive is that they wanted to let me know how impressed they were with me. He said I was a top pick and that my resume and background was very impressive to them. They just thought that I would be taking a step backwards in my career path rather then forward. I saw it as a step up since it was a manager position.

So like I said, it's one less thing I have to worry about. At this time it wasn't meant to be. I'll now enjoy working with the great people that are at my job and have fun sharing my pregnancy with people who have become much more then just friends.

Ultrasound pictures to come soon!

Tonight I was able to have the ultrasound pictures scanned. My brother is going to crop them an put them in an online album for me to share. When I have the link I'll share it with everyone.

I wanted to let everyone know that soon this blog won't be as anonymous. I didn't use names on here to start for fear of being "found out" before we made the announcement ourselves (the blog is search able through Google). So as soon as we're through telling people you'll soon see the real names of Mom-To-Be (me) and Dad-To-Be (aka as DTB in this blog).

Tomorrow marks the start of week 10. I'm still very lucky that I'm feeling pretty darn good. I'll update more on what's to come this week tomorrow. For now I need to get to bed.

Yep, there's a baby in there

And it has arms, legs, a head and a very, very strong heart! I'm not sure what I'm feeling exactly. I'm more excited and more scared all at once. Ugh! My doctor is amazing though! She was very reassuring that everything I've been feeling is completely normal. She also took the time to make sure DTB was comfortable, involved and had all of his questions answered. She did not make us feel rushed or that any of our questions were dumb. I'm very happy we decided to go with her.

We decided that we'll be making our announcements now. We have a good feeling that everything will go fine. So we start telling people.......soon! So hello to all of you that just found out about our big news. We hope you enjoy the trip!

It's been a while

I just wanted to take a second to say hello and let everyone know we are doing well. Today marked week 9 in our pregnancy. It's hard to believe. Time seems to be flying by. Right now we're trying to decide when we're going to make our announcement. We're still thinking it will be the end of July or so. We'll see though after our appointment on Monday.

We're having a great time on our vacation. I haven't had any difficulties. It's nice to get away and relax a little. Hope all is well with everyone! I'll update more soon!!